Change

A week ago today I moved out of my house.

I am not going to air my relationship dirty laundry here, but I am not going back.

Since leaving I have not had a headache.

I have people to thank. Prom Date, TJizzle, Mom, Step-Dad, Mrs. Rocketship, the Doosh. <3

Happy Mother's Day.

I have no problems

I have 6 or 8 problems at the moment. Most of them are pain related.

I am considering driving off a bridge but Hubs has told me that I need to wait at least three days. He says at that point we can reevaluate. I am becoming convinced that he will never see things my way. If I became a quadriplegic then I couldn't feel pain right?

And that was an absolutely terrible thing to say.

Horrible.

Sometimes I think awful things. I think what many people fail to understand is the nature of this condition. They fail to realize that this is a never ending cycle. When I am in pain there is nothing I can do. I just have to push through it and continue on with my life because the other option, sitting at home moaning, isn't really feasible for me. So I plaster on a smile and take care of the kids and pretend like it doesn't feel like there is a burning steel rod shoved into my neck.

This weekend I have really nothing to do, which is nice. I can catch up on some training stuff I have put off for basically the whole school year and wallow in my misery. Completely healthy. The Doosh will be in town which will be uplifting I am sure. He will give me really motivating advice...

"Stop being a little bitch."

"Rub some dirt on it and walk it off."

"No one cares."

Thanks Doosh. I love you too.

Baltimore: Day 3

 Today I learned all about industry.

We went to the Baltimore Museum of Industry. It is probably the coolest museum I have ever been to. Baltimore was apparently an incredibly industrious city. They were the first in a tons of things.

 Look! More firsts!

 And still MORE firsts!

This is all. There are no more. Just these firsts. I mean, I am sure there are more things that I don't know about but this is all there was at the museum.

Over there is typeset from a printing press and over there is an electric car. I thought the car looked like a boat. It made me giggle.

And the Doosh. Being dooshy. Making sheet metal. Pretty sure you were not supposed to touch the exhibits, but I could be wrong.

This is Charlie!

Charlie AND Nacho

Otherwise we pretty much just hung out at the Doosh's. We played cards and walked the dogs.

The Doosh had to work at 8 so Mom and I walked down to the harbor. We found a place called Saladworks where we got to build our own salads! It was tasty and cool. This will be the last time I walk for about a year though.

My head felt great today. Besides being a little sleepy I felt better than I had all week long. So that was awesome. Of course we did less walking and less overeating today. That may have had something to do with it.

We are leaving for home tomorrow. I am excited to be getting back. I just wish I had brought a muffin up because I need something sweet after my salad.

Baltimore: Day 2

Today for breakfast I ate at Miss Shirley's. It was fabulous. To the left are white chocolate raspberry pancakes and to the right are some delicious hash browns with onions. I think I gained twenty pounds.

 After that we drove over to Fort McHenry. This was where Francis Scott Key wrote the Star Spangled Banner. It also saved Baltimore during the revolutionary war. It was pretty awesome and the grounds are beautiful. The only problem? I forgot my memory card in my camera so I could only take a few pictures.

We went to Fell's Point which is a neighborhood in Baltimore and I saw where Homicide was created! isn't that super cool?

We walked to Fell's Point. It was a pretty long walk and by the time we were trecking up the hill on the way back to the Doosh's the back of my neck felt like it had a metal rod stuck into it. I assume it was some type of exertional headache. That is one thing I have really noticed on this trip. I am so much slower than I used to be. I have less energy and I get bogged down by fatigue sooner.

So bottom line it was a relief to be back at the Doosh's hanging out with Charlie and Nacho. Mom even fell asleep.

But the crowning achievement of the day was none of these things. It wasn't even the delicious Greek food I had for dinner that I failed to take a picture of. It wasn't even when my neck ache went away and I started to feel human again.

It was Duckpin Bowling.

Doosh bowling

Tiny Dancer bowling

Duckpin bowling is much like regular bowling only the balls and pins are smaller and you get three turns a frame instead of two. It was probably the most fun thing we have done thus far. I would Duckpin bowl again in a heartbeat.

Mom bowling

Baltimore: Day 1

Hi, I'm a botanic garden!

I saw many things today.

I saw this awesome building.

Hi, I am a fuzzy thing!

And inside of this building were lots of plants, including these awesome and hilarious little fuzzy things.





And then we went to the Baltimore Museum of Art. I saw all sorts of wonderful and majestic pieces of art. There were paintings and furniture arranged in rooms. I saw all sorts of amazing and wonderful things. What made the largest impression on me was this...

Hi, I am having sex with a chicken.

This man sure loves his chicken.

Then I consumed this. This is one of the four pizzas that the Doosh's girlfriend, Tiny Dancer, made for us. They were all amazing. I feel like a huge fat slob though.

It was a great day.

Baltimore Baby

We made it!

We had originally planned on stopping with about three hours left, but then the Doosh got us a good deal at his hotel so we figured let's just go. And went we did.

The trip was great, except the last hour which was incredibly rainy. I thought that Mom might have a heart attack, but we got through it. Tomorrow we will move to the hotel where we will be staying throughout the trip, which is right by the harbor. I am excited.

I will keep you posted.

Pre-Spinal Tap Post

Dr. Awesome wants me to note how I feel the day I get my spinal tap. So I am noting it here. I plan on making Dr. Awesome read my blog if only so he can see what he truly looks like on the inside.

I have inserted his picture again so you can all be reminded.

Today I feel... ok. I have some slight pressure in my neck and ears but no headache. I am tired, but my dogs were on their mom has work schedule so it is the kind of tired you get when you get up too early. Damn dogs. I do have floaters though. Lots of floaters today and my eyes are showing a tendency to find it easier to remain unfocused.

We are going to go around 1 I think so I will blog afterwards and tell everyone how it went.

I am nervous.

There is a large part of me that worries that I don't really have IIH. Isn't that silly? I have proof in the form of excess spinal fluid that is sitting on a shelf at the Doosh's place right now as well as fundus pictures of my swollen optic nerves but still a large part of me wonders if this is all in my head. I mean, I guess I know that I have have IIH but what if my pressure is normal? Then why do I feel like such crap? Is that all in my head?

On the flip side I am petrified that my pressure is high and that I will have to take a million grams of acetazolamide. Not only is that shit not cheap, but the side effects are less than awesome. And then what if that doesn't work? Suddenly I'm staring into the eyes of a shaved head and a shunt. Well shit.

So yeah, my emotions are mixed. Excuse me, I think I need to go and look at cute pictures on the internet for a while...

Grrrrrr-eat Day

Today was a good day. Things were just kind of coming up Me.

I woke up to a text from my brother. Well, really a series of texts, telling me how much he liked my blog. It made my day. My brother (we will call him Doosh) and I live rather far apart and as such are not super close. We can't hang out on the weekends but when I do go visit we have a great time. He will not only have my back if someone is giving me shit but he will also tell me when I am being an idiot. Both excellent qualities in a brother. So what he said meant a lot to me and it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

It was also a half day at work, which is just glorious.

I had my interview with the local paper and that went really well. Of course I knew it would because the NewsMan is such a great guy. I don't know when the article will run, but I will scan it in here so you all can see it.

Hanging out with Wills always makes a day worth while.

It is also insanely nice out. Sunny and whatnot. I feel like a million bucks.

<3